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I Only Use This ID to Leave Comments on Some Blogs I Read

2009-10-07T18:55:00.004+08:00

hi

it looks like there's something with my wordpress ID - i can't leave comment using my wordpress ID on some blogspot pages. so, to leave comments on some blogspot pages, i have to use my blogspot ID.

however, please be informed that i do not write here anymore.

i now write HERE :)

i'm sorry for inconvenience caused :-|

au revoir

2009-07-20T11:26:00.004+08:00

i decided on a new atmosphere. here.

all that belong here will remain here.
new home is all clean and fresh.

five years here had been good.
bye bye.

p.s.: saying goodbye ain't easy.

c h e c k !

2009-07-16T14:45:00.003+08:00

oh dear it's been two months down the road, and like 4 months to go!

well. at least there's a little progress now and we've decided who to do the following stuff:

1. photography
2. make-up for nikah & sanding - booked them already
3. hantaran - mula-mula kitorang berangan nak buat sendiri la kan, konon kreatip. tapi bila pikir-pikir balik...duit sama banyak gak yg akan dibelanjakan. masa lagi. kan. maka kami serahkan saja kepada yang pakar untuk membantu. hehe.
4. pelamin
5. venue - finally we got a spot!
6. HIV test - we passed our test yippie!

almost there:

1. catering
2. videography

wah bestnye! :D

p.s.: will you marry me already?

c r e d i t s . t o . a l l

2009-07-16T14:28:00.005+08:00

pheww. all the dramas paid off. FotoPhactory joined a ten-day promotion for wedding works, hosted by Kraftangan Malaysia from 4 to 13 July 2009.

our first time joining. i heard the news just one week before the event and registered last minute - on the closing date itself. and started all the preparations - designing albums, reprinting stuff, frames bla bla. penat cam nak pengsan dengan stress lagi sebab event dah nak dekat tapi benda banyak lagi nak buat suma (haha mimang la aku suka stress kan).

but it all paid off. not financially, sweetheart. but at least we got some bookings - thank you for those who believe in us. and for the first time in 2009, i got this HUGE satisfaction from my job! pheww. and what i learnt out of the event, i really treasured.

biggest thanks go to khairi who helped out and supported me all the way, with full of patience and love. ecewah drama haha! and to Ax Rafar of Custom Picture - dude thanks for helping me out with my preparations and thanks for introducing the promo to me! thanks and congratulations adibah for your EXCELLENT job marketing our packages! we're so impressed and you're officially our marketing exec now hehe.

thanks to ayah also for your ideas & for visiting us there. thanks to mak for your advices and for coming like 4 times to the booth (hehe) and patiently takes care of the booth while i wasn't there. to other Conlay Photographers - Idzwan & Surya from G.i Photoshoot for lending me your easel hehe and for your tips. Mango Touch team, Serindit & cool dudes from Photo Chaos Crew - hangpa mimang best!

kusha of RumahSanggah & kay of Photolicious, thanks for your advice & ideas. kusha thanks a lot hehe. thanks ijad jugak of PixelMedia for dropping by.

also, thanks to ayu my partner-in-crime for promoting the event online. thanks.

10 hari di sana sangat best!

finally i listened to what this one recruitment consultant said to me, back in 2007 - "wahida, go out and DO what you WANT to do". i took his words and no regrets.

i took my risk, and it was the risk worth taking. definitely.

p.s.: higher the risk, higher the return.

t h r e e . m o n t h s !

2009-07-16T14:18:00.003+08:00

no,not to my wedding, but that's how long i haven't been checking out my blog.

to wordphactory, hello again. gosh how i missed typing stuff out. but well, no mood, no writings. hehe.

life has been pretty interesting (haha) for the past two-and-a-half months.

now let's see. what's interesting for the past coupla months:

1. me back running out and about with my camera, hooray hooray. those bride-to-be out there, if you're looking for lady shooters do check out our website at www.fotophactory.com. special discount if you're a loyal follower of my blog hehe.

2. me got engaged with khairi on may 2nd. can't belive it's two-and-a-half months already! how time flew.

3. linda is happily married to fariz. heiii sukenye tingok dorang, suwit sangat!

4. fotophactory joined Promosi Kerja Kahwin 2009 at Kompleks Kraf Jalan Conlay, KL from 4 to 13 July 2009 - the best days in my working life in 2009. hehe. kejam je statement but really.

5. dan lain lain. hehe.

babai!

tepung, mentega dan gula

2009-04-28T11:04:00.003+08:00

pening.

gula, mentega, telur dan tepung diputar bersama. tambah sesudu teh serbuk coklat. putar lagi. namti nampak warna coklat selang-selang dengan kuning.

pening.

macam tu la saya punya pening sekarang. pusing-pusing. semua ada dalam satu bakul. saya pening.

ada satu benda saya tunggu dari disember. ni dah nak masuk mei. tak ada lagi. kejam. saya sangat tidak faham. birokrasi tahap dewa.

dan lain-lain juga.

hujung minggu ni saya akan jumpa keluarga di kampung. mereka akan membuat saya gembira semula.

:)

s a p t u

2009-04-25T22:05:00.000+08:00

hari ni saptu. rabu petang balik kedah. tido rumah cikdan. khamis balik rumah tokwan. saptu...

takut!

p.s.: dupdap

C u p c a k e s (2nd Edition)

2009-04-22T10:44:00.003+08:00

Top Left to Right: Dark White, County Orange, Mallowdramatic
Bottom row: Viva Vanilla

second try. this time, i tried Nigella Lawson's recipe that i got from a blog. i intended to make 24 cupcakes so i double up the ingredients, but it turned out that the mixture was enough for 48 cupcakes! (i used 1.5" cups). exactly 48, no wastage. hail Nigella!

i chucked in chocolate powder / choc chips / choc chunks / white choc chunks to come up with 4 varieties:
- Viva Vanilla (vanilla with choc chips)
- County Orange (zesty orange with choc chunks) - with real orange juice!
- Dark White* (choc with white choc chunks)
- Mallowdramatic (choc with marshmallow) - the mashmallow melted and actually left a hole in my cakes hehe.

this time the cupcakes turned out better than the first try. the frosting texture improved, but it's a tad salty. next time need to put more sugar.

frostings are still sloppy. need to play around more with the icing and nozzles. (i dream of more and more nozzles. lalala.)

those who tasted the cupcakes, thank you for your comments & advice. really appreciate it. :D

*Dark White is actually the name of a printing company owned by my friends Kusha & Shasha. the name doesn't sound pretty bad on a cupcake either. hehe. bole ke kita pinjam nama korang tu?

p.s.: i need nurofen.

Baking Virgin

2009-04-22T10:39:00.002+08:00

for some reasons i had this strong urge to try baking cupcakes. so i got the recipe off Irda, my beloved Cooking Master, and brought in on on Sunday. thanks Irda for the recipe! :D as far as i could recall, i never baked cakes before this hehe. i did cookies and brownies, but never cakes.

so. as we could imagine, the cakes turned out a bit heavy, and the frostings were sloppy hehe. i used normal sugar instead of icing sugar for the frosting. blended them but didn't sift them well so you could feel the sugar texture on the frosting, and, it's super sweet you feel like munching chili to neutralize the taste :p

irda & baby: rasa dan texture dia ala ala frosting kat kedai yang kita makan pada hari saptu tu hehe so kiranya ahkak dah boleh bukak kedai la hekhek.

so here goes. my very first set of cupcakes. ;)

p.s.: happy belated burthday adib!

c o u n t i n g . s h e e p

2009-04-09T01:51:00.007+08:00

I need some sleep . You can't go home like this . I try counting sheep . But there's one I always miss . Everyone says I'm getting down to low . Everyone says, "You just gotta let it go" .

I Need Sleep - Eels

(maybe so).

can't sleep. off sleeping time. i need to talk to someone. but i've had enough of letting go of what's inside. but i did talk anyways. thanks for listening. i know it wasn't a fair conversation.

things are going to be different soon. in a good way i hope. InsyaAllah.

soon. in thirty-two days. oh boy, i guess i have some unfinished business with some people somewhere. or maybe it's just me. i get too sensitive over things sometimes. especially when it comes to people i really care about. well. deep down, i care. probably a tad too much. well. blame it on the excessive paradoxical hormone. weird. anyways.

well. maybe - just maybe, if i knew better when and how to do which, things would have been very different now, wouldn't it? yeah, maybe. but what difference does it make? if things were different, i would've wanted it to be different from what it had been anyways. see? weird, told ya.

well. i'm feeling so mellow now and i'm loving it, you get this half-sober and half-intoxicated sensation and your monologue goes real well. sweetie you need sleep. yes, i do.

p.s.: ayu, i missed our old times. i really do. :-|

p.p.s.: when i wake up tomorrow morning i'll fall in love over again. :D

Kisah Pot Pourri

2009-04-06T09:57:00.005+08:00

(untuk mendapatkan impak maksima, sila baca dengan intonasi saya bercakap waktu tengah kelam kabut)

semalam pergi kenduri Ax & Elis. Selamat pengantin baru Ax & Elis. semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu. wah baju Elis lawa gile! thaye thangat thuke!makanan pun sedap sangat. lepas kenduri singgah Jalan TAR kejap sebab nak ambik benda dari Linda. berenti depan Bata tu. hujam lebap. teman Linda gi beli tudung nikah dia jap kat Gulati's. lepas tu nak pegi Ampang Point patutnya.

tapi... ada perasaan yang sangat kuat untuk pegi SSF. maka kitorang pun carik la parking. lepas tu pegi la SSF dengan baju kurung (ada diamond diamond lagi) dengan terompah lagi. ala-ala ayu tapi jiwa aku tersiksa menahan sakit kaki tapi sebab penggilan SSF yang sangat kuat maka ku gagahkan diri juga.

jalan-jalan kat SSF, sekali terdetik "eh nak buat pot pourri la". ah sudah... maka ku luahkan hasrat di hati itu kepada Boss. "boleh bagi kat orang-orang." Boss kata okay. ahkak pun apa lagi. cargas aje.

okay lepas tu dah dapat la barang-barang. sampai rumah dah magrib. lepas magrib je terus cargas memulakan misi ad hoc. try buat satu dulu. ok, setel. lepas tu potong la kain untuk buat bunjut yang lain-lain. sekali tak cukup. dapat 27 je. patut nak buat 50. ha tu la lain kali kalau dalam hati dah kata 2 meter, beli 2 meter. takyah budget-bugdget beli 1 meter. kan dah kena pegi lagi SSF. lain kali je la.

so buat punya buat (dalam keadaan senyap sunyi sebab mak takde)... dapat la 27 bijik. sekali mak balik. wah mak gumbira la tingok benda-benda potpuri ni! seperti biasa, mak i sangat cekap dalam menyuntik idea-idea baru. mak kata "kita buat camni la". alamak, tapi dah buat cam lain. tapi idea mak cam lagi best. maka buat la cam mak cakap. pastu buat la dengan mak pastu mak ngelat kata nak tingok tv (sebenarnye majuk sebab ahkak takmo amik idea dia hehehe). pastu bila ahkak kata "ok la ok la kita buat cam mak cakap la" mak tak jadik tingok tv pastu buat balik popuri. hehe.

pastu buat sampai kul 11 lebih mata dah juling sebab lampu kalimantang kitorang terbakar maka ada lampu kuning tu je. maka berenti la. ada lagi 8 kot yang belum buh bunga & reben. malam ni boleh abiskan. lain kali boleh pegi beli lagi 1 meter kain organza nak buat bunjut dia.

okay hari ni kelam kabut nak pi hantar borang. bukan borang kawin ye tuan-tuan. mintak diri dulu ekh. kalut ni.

p.s.: i'm starting to get nervous!

cuppycakegumdropssplickemsplickem

2009-03-31T00:01:00.006+08:00

cupcakes order done.

as usual, cupcakes are from Sabrina and the Cupcakes. i especially love her Very Vanilla cupcakes. :)

next project:
Shop Till We Drop (Part 2) - tudung and kain songket.

p.s.: good night, sweetheart.

of chiffon, lace and beads

2009-03-30T22:41:00.001+08:00

i'm becoming less and less keen on shopping. gosh this is bad bad sign, and i seriously need help. time to see the doctor and check my oestrogen level, just to confirm my normalcy (all normal women should have natural desire towards shopping, shouldn't they!)

despite that, Shop Till We Drop (Part 1) was a success. our hunger and the fact that Khairi was a Jalan-TAR-shopping virgin made our success even sweeter. :p

we finally decided on those peach beaded chiffon for 2nd of May. yeay, that's THE shade of peach that i had been wanting since ages!! thanks Zam & Linda for helping me out with the decisions. ahkak sangat rambang mata. sib baik korang ada. hehe. thanks to Linda for introducing Kak Net the tailor to me too.

for Partnership Day, we decided on plain chiffon silk. angelic. hehehe. to spice things up, we'll patch some lace bordes on the dress. angelic + spicy = spicy angel. yums.

now that i've got what i needed for now, i could have better sleeps. at least for now, until the time comes when i should go out and hunt for my tudung.

p.s.: Khairi, kain tu Khairi belanja ka? :D :D

A p r i l

2009-03-30T13:20:00.003+08:00

March is ending and April is coming.

thirty-two days to Next Step.

please don't ask me what i'm feeling right now. it's gonna be a long story. heuw.

p.s.: jeg elsker dig :D :D

public . speaking

2009-03-30T13:18:00.003+08:00

i have this strong urge to do public speaking. been a year since i last did one. god, please help me.

p.s.: sakit tengkuk

d o t . c o m

2009-03-29T09:06:00.001+08:00

bila boleh up ni?

bilakah?

boeh la. plissss??

p.s.: penantian adalah satu penyiksaan.

p i l i h a n

2009-03-11T14:35:00.003+08:00

shout out to all fashionistas out there!

sutera thai atau chifon?

sutera thai - baju kurung pesak gantung, sulam & sedikit manik

chifon - kurung moden, kat tangan tempek lace border

in the name of glory, please cast your vote!

p.s.: if only total democracy exists.

e n d . o f . d r a m a

2009-03-02T16:55:00.003+08:00

hah. finally. last Saturday broke it all. for a month, we didn't. we didn't what? you don't want to know. and no you perv, i'm not talking about whatever that you're thinking about. i'm innocent thank you hehe.

well. thanks to cik dan for coming over the weekend. at least you helped me (us) to get things go back to normal. for those who had been listening, can't thank you more, can i?

only, this time, i'm a little bit careful with my steps. hehe. gosh. drama.

anyways. time for goreng pisang.

p.s.: butter nan tonight!

p o s t p o n e m e n t

2009-03-02T16:50:00.005+08:00

(did i even get the word right? let's just assume that i did)

well. postponed again. this time, to 2nd May. 2nd May is fine. at least i don't have to do anything until the end of March! can keep myself idle in this department, and get busy with other departments of life. yippa i love being idle!

p.s.: let's get a nice ring until then.

g i b b e r i s h

2009-02-17T19:47:00.002+08:00

I guess i still have the right to be normal again. as if i remember what normal feels like anymore.

after that 'incident' three weeks ago, i was so doomed. yes, it's been twenty-one days since. sad. i felt i've lost everything. but i don't care.

man i can't even write. i should go and talk to God.

p.s.: congratulations zam & shah, and iejan & pecot for their engagements.

p.p.s.: i dream of that kebaya labuh from Cosry. baby please kill me.

make . love . not . war

2009-01-31T11:10:00.004+08:00

what's going on deep inside me is worse than Gaza (metaphorically, thank you).

but seriously. i'm not even half the person i used to be. i don't even know "what" anymore. let alone what to do and where to go.

well. i'm utterly sick and tired of what had been going on.

e.x.h.a.u.s.t.e.d.

but seriously. until when? this is a neverending story. been on since forever. on and on and on. sick. let you be. i'm not going to look back and see where we've gone wrong - did that all the times and tried to mend things and what is got mostly are "ha, nanti jadi lagi (please fill in the blank - whatever that happened that i'd been trying to mend)".

my verdict is either:
- lack of trust of me (and most other people, per se)
- some kind of phobia (of the possibility of what happened happens again) (for God's sake the whole world knows 'let by gone be by gone' had worked wonders since forever)
- the most dominant gene in the system is Dominance
- lack of confidence in self
- surroundings

well. we all need help. all of us. especially me. let me tell you how i'm going to seek help for myself. i've spoken to those i needed to. i've went all mad. i've skipped responsibilities. and for all i know now, i'd be selfish. as selfish as could be. this time i'm gonna be. as kering as you always said i'd been.

i'm not sad, mind me. not anymore. i'm not mad. far from it. i just don't care anymore. and i love the feelings. this is time to be selfish.

two oh oh nine is not a year for me to sulk. not anymore. two oh oh six seven and eight saw me sulked too much already. i crossed dublin from my plans. that's not what i really wanted to do. i don't run away. now i'm going out and do what i really want to do. and today, i'm going for a two-day course. for a start.

and khairi, yes, i'm all positive. i can walk with you already. i wanna walk with you. walk and run and tumble and get up again and walk again and run again and grow old with you. thank you.

somewhat i missed level 35 tower 2. gosh.

p.s.: ayah, pak ngah, cik dan, khairi, jugha, ayu, zam, iejan, baby, winda, kusha - thanks a lot for being there. geez i need a whole football team to hold me strong.

p.p.s.: things do happen for reasons.

of mak & brooch & watch

2009-01-15T09:04:00.006+08:00

i owned some ten sweet tiny brooches of similar designs for my tudung. apparently, those little brooches are so irresistible that mak couldn't get her hands off my brooch case. only, mak isn't too good in returning them brooches to where they belong after she's done with wearing them.

sigh.

months went by and now i'm left with three or so little brooches for me. and i usually need about 5 everyday.

scarce.

one day. i asked mak "mak, brooch 4 segi ida suma tu mana?". and she was like "mana ada mak ambik." couple of days ago, i found the brooches back to their original resting place. hehe.

bliss.

this morning. she was like "nampak tak jam mak?". of course i didn't. ten minutes after, i figured that my steel watch wasn't there where i put it last night. so i knew where it is. and was left with my plastic watch, which i have to wear to work. with baju batik.

call me fashion goddess.

well whatever. hehe. my mom and i, we're Big Allies when it comes to almost everything. political views, favorite color, baju kurung, food, et cetera. only, when it comes to my sweet tiny brooches and steel watch, we're so going opposite directions. especially when my brooches & steel watch disappear in the midst of me preparing to go to work.

bloody annoying.

which only make me love mak more than ever.

p.s.: breakfast today - roti cicah sardin, from mom's kitchen :)

m o r n i n g . m o r n i n g !

2009-01-15T09:02:00.003+08:00

it's already morning but i don't want to wake up cuz then you'll start running around in my head and i don't want you to get tired from it. yet, having you running around there has became part of my life and i can't get away with it.

p.s.: wakey wakey!

t y p o f o b i c

2009-01-09T10:39:00.005+08:00

call me a freak but i have becoming ultra-sensitive about my spelling and punctuation and grammar in official documents. and in published documentation (especially those that you sell to people). ecpecially when it comes to 'kata nama khas' (what is it in English, again, please? thank you).

having said that, w o r d p h a c t o r y is intended to be a piece of art ("art your a**" i heard my inner self said) (but hey!) so i'm still quite flexible on my writing rules here. hehe.

p.s.: Spelling Bee.

o u i

2009-01-06T09:10:00.004+08:00

**** *** ***** ** ?

'yes', i said. correct answer. of course i got the answer right, this dude's better than ashton kutcher! well, at least this dude is more real, true-to-life than ashton. okay. better than ashton, in most cases.

well. whatever. just give the ticket to me and take me there.

p.s.: 23 December 2008 was good.

b e t t e r . b u t t e r

2009-01-05T09:26:00.003+08:00

if you thought you could do better, do it. just... do it.

(saying to the world that you could do better is different from actually doing it, thank you).

you know what, if you don't do, they don't care.

well, of course some things are actually done by saying it out.

p.s.: bought a bitter butter so gotta buy a better butter.

two . owh . owh . nine

2009-01-02T11:36:00.001+08:00

welcome 2009.

thanks for coming at the right time. i need you so bad.

p.s.: fryday

b o o k . i t

2008-11-13T17:37:00.000+08:00

Just so that my birthday won't be as mundane as any other days, I'm getting these for myself as birthday gifts:

1. Nick Hornby's Fever Pitch
2. Tony Parson's My Favorite Wife (NEW!!)

I don't think I need anything else. Yup, I'm fine. Well, a nice pancake would do. One with ice cweam on top.

Yup.

p.s.: Pak Ngah I need you so bad.

b e l i e v e

2008-11-13T16:19:00.004+08:00

Once upon a time, I wanted one person to believe in me. That person did, only, with too much "buts" and "(negative) what ifs".

Years passed by and I discovered that I had never been too good in handling "buts" and negative "what ifs". I'm so poisoned. So contaminated.

Whatever. I need a way out. Only, who's taking me out? Don't count on me on doing it myself. I'm paralyzed, within. I'm being weak, I know. Only, as strong as I had been all these while, I grant myself to be weak. At least for now. I mean, only for now.

p.s.: What's gonna work?! TEAAAM WORK!!

p.p.s.: Apeee yang penting?! KEJEEE SAMA!!

s e v e n t e e n t h

2008-11-13T16:15:00.003+08:00

Four days to November the Seventeenth.
Four days to becoming twenty-seven.

Twenty-nothing? Almost yes.

p.s.: blow it all. blow.

S t a y i n g . P o w e r

2008-11-13T16:11:00.001+08:00

That is what I lack.
I guess.

Insatiable.
Maybe.

Or have I not really gone out and do that thing that I really want to do?
Looks like it.

p.s.: 4 years. 6 to go to That Big Milestone.

s c o r p i o

2008-10-20T00:25:00.005+08:00

YOU ARE:
Able to see straight through people and into the heart of the matter. Your intuition gives you a goddess like status but if anyone crosses you they'll know how long you'll wait and how far you'll go for revenge!

THE GOOD:
If knowledge is power, your ability to get people to divulge their deepest secrets takes you far! Your legendary loyalty makes you a strong ally and dedicated friend or lover and when things are going well your power sees you soaring through life.

THE BAD:
You often hate change but boredom can lead to self-created drama and drama can lead to a downward spiral of self-sabotage; what you need is to constantly recreate yourself.

Quoted from CLEO Magazine, November 2008.

Well. Somewhat agreeable, to some extent.

Girls, no matter how old they are, will still love horoscopes. :p

p.s.: girl friends are the best diamonds.

w a i t r e s s

2008-10-16T13:32:00.001+08:00

I chose not to wait anymore.

I chose to walk away.

From whatever that's dragging me away.

p.s.: sincerity is all.

v o m i t

2008-10-16T11:22:00.002+08:00

I feel like vomitting my soul out.

I honestly hope this isn't genetic. It looke very much like it, though.

Well. Let's throw it all out.

p.s.: soul sold.

p a r d n e r

2008-10-13T14:37:00.003+08:00

Dear Pardner,

Despite all, I'm glad that at least I have you around. I'm glad that our timing is just perfect. Couldn't ask for more, could I?

p.s.: I love you too.

s u b s t a n c e

2008-10-13T14:23:00.003+08:00

What am I made of?

I thought I was resistant enough, but it seems like I'm in the verge of giving up. Only, giving up is never an option.

Geez I'm at my weakest point of the year two zero zero eight. I need God to tell me that I can go through all these.

God I don't even know what my substance is anymore. I'm so crying inside.

God please don't tell me I forgot to count on my blessings...

p.s.: i need my mobile phone.

the . one

2008-10-13T13:04:00.004+08:00

I thought that was the one already. Had my prays actually been granted? If they hadn't, why did I nail it in the first place? Why did...

I can't question.

Somehow I'm tired. At this age?

My God this is tough. Being me ain't easy. Being anyone ain't easy when people put too high of an expectation on you and nothing seems to satisfy them. Not even nailing the best job there is. Not even being all up to the standards.

I'm sick of trying to nail it all. I'm sick. Up to one point, I chose just let it be. Only, it seems to backfire.

If running away could solve these all... I would have. Only, running away never helped. But how do I face these all?

Geez. Had I actually ruined it all?

Ladies and gentlemen I have a huge dilemma. At the age of twenty-seven, I'm afraid of exploiting my full potential. Thus, I need help. Thank you.

p.s.: baby please don't leave me alone.

i k h l a s

2008-10-13T12:59:00.004+08:00

Once upon a time, my steps into that door were accompanied by sincerity. How good did that feel. Only, things turned the other way round. Whatever that happened within that four walls became hard for me to cope. Because I lost it.

God, this is hard. This is hard.

p.s.: please be there for me.

d i p l o m a t i k

2008-10-13T12:57:00.002+08:00

diplomatik tu, macam lepas kita masuk kolej, kita dapat diploma. tapi, diploma tu dibuat daripada plastik!

Aku tingok katun apa ntah kat astro. Bujang Lapok kot.

Haha. Boleh saja.

p.s.: down.

mamak . kari

2008-10-10T10:28:00.005+08:00

Kalau cakap laju-laju kan, nanti jadi camni:

mamak kari mamak kari mamak kari mamak kari mamak kari mamak kari mamak kari mamak kari mamak kari mamak kari!!

Haha. i'm addicted. No, not to the kari, but to the mamak.

So what? Mamak is always good. Especially mamak kari.

p.s.: jeg elsker også dig!

p.p.s.: wedagila!

t u n e . i n

2008-10-09T11:38:00.004+08:00

I'm tuning in. We're tuning in.

As long as we've no doubts in what we're doing.

Last night was beautiful. I always love a drive in the rain. I loved it more last night because I had you by my side.

p.s.: jeg elsker dig.

fast . track

2008-10-08T09:59:00.003+08:00

Maybe I'm going too fast. But I guess it's not how fast you are. It's how you steer it.

As long as I keep my sanity under control.

***

I've been in vertigo, for the past three days. Dizzy dizzy dizzy.

p.s.: 180km/h

two-and-a-quater years later...

2008-10-07T21:32:00.009+08:00

I finally waved my white flag.

Baby to you I surrender.

Three o'clock Tuesday was good.

p.s.: Strike Three came in the form of a one-liner.

s t r i k e

2008-10-04T13:06:00.002+08:00

This is 4th day of Hari Raya.

Strike Two on 2nd day of Raya.

JackJack made me smile early this morning.

See if I will do Strike Three tomorrow. I probably would.

p.s.: turkey ham.

l o c k

2008-09-18T13:24:00.005+08:00

Suddenly i feel like I'm losing it.

I feel empty. It all seems vague. I though I was so sure of it. But now I'm not.

:(

p.s.: let it be or let it go?

c o n t a m i n a t e d

2008-09-16T13:09:00.006+08:00

there's nowhere left to hide
in no one to confide
the truth runs deep inside
and will never die

Sing for Absolution, Muse.

I probably have wasted too much times. I exposed myself too much to contamination. I'm so contaminated now. All I need is an absolution.

And I thought this is the time.I just have to throw it all away. Pick, and chuck away. And clean my hands off it all. How cool is that. Oh, don't forget to say thank you for all the lessons. At least I'm 2% wiser now.

OK. I decided. No more. Affirmative.

Lat's kill all germs.

p.s.: Knowledge Management

s e p t e m b e r

2008-09-13T13:18:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Zam & Khairi.

You're my sunshines. Kak Long, you too.

September is just so full of birthday.

Zamani on 7th, Waty 9th, Irda 11th, Zam 12th, Mat 13th, Alif Irfan & Cik Cek 14th, Thoriq 16th, Iylia 17th, Amsyar 18th and Jabir 21st. And they're all my favorite ducklings.

p.s.: A N E I haha

T h e . D r i v e

2008-09-11T14:13:00.003+08:00

I wish I could maintain The Drive.

I just wish it's not as volatile as it has always been.

All I need is The Drive.

All I wish for now is for things to go right.

p.s.: in front of both PC's

Everytime . I . Close . My . Eyes

2008-09-11T08:14:00.003+08:00

The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just blessing that I have found somebody like you

It's a rare situation that I actually ANALYZE song lyrics while I get dressed to work. But it happened this morning. For the past million years that I'd been listening to this song, it never really touched me. Until this morning.

God knows what about the lyrics that touched me so deeply. It could well be the saxophone anyways.

I guess I'm in the mood for love (which is different from 'being in love'). I'll just love, while I'm in the mood.

Well. I'm feeling a bit suffocated. And I feel like I've caused some people to suffocate as well.

p.s.: sunshine.

p.p.s.: Happy birthday Irda. I hope everything goes well for mama.

d a . d a . d a

2008-09-08T18:28:00.006+08:00

here's irda, wahida and wahida

Buka puasa at Flaming yesterday. Steamboat. Ate like there's no tomorrow. The way we always did. Once upon a time, we lived under one roof. One of the best things was we really splurged ourselves in foods.

Buka puasa buffets at Riverside Restaurant, PWTC for many years.
10 euro set lunch at Verona Restaurant all the times back in Dublin.
Paella on La Ramblas, Barcelona in Summer 2005.
Butler's hot chocolate.
Beef burger at Rick's - the best in the world!
Irda's 'mekerel' (the best caramel pudding).
That candle light lunch back in 2003 or 2004.
...and God knows what.

Yums. Well. Been missing you girls.

p.s.: Still listening to Unintended.

u n i n t e n d e d

2008-09-08T18:16:00.005+08:00

You could be my unintended

Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one Ill always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions

Some songs really make you mellow.

Right now listening to Unintended by Muse. For the past 5 years, this is one song that have been melting me down, all the times. Especially when I'm in this kind of mood I'm having now. And especially when it rains and I' driving.

Well.

I can be downright mellow without reasons anyways.

But I'm so mellow. Haven't been, for the past couple of weeks. It feels good to feel mellow again.

I love rock stars. Especially when they start to get mellow. Perfect paradox.

p.s.: baby be there

b a l m & s h o e s

2008-09-06T14:22:00.004+08:00

My catches yesterday. Been eyeing for the balm, but the shoes were accidental.

Total Energy Pulse Point Balm
From The Body Shop

Zesty orangy smell. A quick lift-me-up!!
Recommended, if you're a firm believer of anything arometherapeutic.

Kasut Raya!!
From Vincci

Love at first try.
(been ages since i last bought shoes specifically for raya, so i guess this is worth a treat for my feet)

p.s.: in the air

k a y

2008-09-06T13:11:00.006+08:00

After about half-a-year of no-news, Kay (a friend from Dublin) called. Last I texted him was back in March when I was in Bangkok.

Back in Dublin, Kay never failed to cheer me up with his Butler's hot chocolate. The best hot chocolate ever. Yums.

p.s.: i missed those rides on Dublin buses

wake . up . and . read . a . book

2008-09-06T12:50:00.006+08:00

I kept on buying books. Only to find out i still have some unread stuff.

(bought carl hiaasen & sylvia path in DUBLIN and i read halfway and i turned to another books)

(shall go back to sylvia plath's whenever i get a bit more melancholic-melodramatic-psychopathic)

Whatever. These are investents for possible future downtime. Books are always a worthwhile investment. At least for me.

p.s.: DUBLIN means february 2006, thank you.

t h i n k . p i n k

2008-09-06T12:07:00.009+08:00

"I've been thinking about you and me, and your father. It seems that since we separated you've had to grow up a whole lot more than I ever gave you credit for."

"When I look at you
I see the woman I want to be
Strong and brave
Beautiful and free
p.s.: I love you"

Life on the Refrigerator Door
by Alice Kuipers

Okay, i actually browsed through it because it's pink. MY shade of pink. Wasn't too attracted to the title in the first place. But when i read it through, i got hooked.

Short and simple, but it touches you right in the heart.
(When you attempt to touch a heart, keep it short and simple. *wink*)

It makes you mellow, especially when you can relate the story to reality. Emotional. Simply beautiful. I love it.

p.s.: Mak, i love you more than ever.

r e f r e s h

2008-09-06T11:46:00.006+08:00

I just realized that in 3 days, wordphactory will turn 3.

How time flies.

Time to spring-clean wordphactory.
Time to start a whole new chapter.

All my old posts were bagged.
In case you need them, you can dig them in 'zipped and sealed'.

Time to refresh!

p.s.: cotton white

lost . in . translation

2008-08-26T13:55:00.003+08:00

i seriously am.

p.s.: *** ****

i've been tagged!!

2008-08-25T12:35:00.005+08:00

5 TABIAT BURUK TIME SEKOLAH
1. tido dalam kelas (i was The Queen, mate!!) haha
2. suka ponteng skolah agama

(that's all. i was, and still am, innocent)

3 FAVOURITE SUBJEK ANDA... KENAPA??
1. Prinsip Akaun
2. English
3. Pendidikan Seni

3 SUBJEK ANDA TAK SUKA... KENAPA??
1. Geografi
2. Sejarah
3. Matematik Tambahan

MENARIK PADA KAMU...?
i'm a good driver. i behave well on the road. thank you.

KAMU PALING SUKA...?
driving in the rain.

ANDA TIDAK BOLEH HIDUP TANPA...???
my sanity.

SETIAP MALAM SEBELUM TIDUR SIAPA YANG ANDA HUBUNGI..?
depends. most of the time it's ayu, zam & shasha.

MANGSA TAG KAMU
1. era
2. iliana
3. remy

I n g e n i u r

2008-08-25T12:30:00.005+08:00

i wish i were a network engineer.

God please help me. at least please let me understand the language.

p.s.: version six

a m p a n g

2008-08-25T08:52:00.005+08:00

officially back to ampang.

for some periods in my life, i will be driving 40 kilometres in the morning and another 40 in the evening, five days a week.

bliss.

p.s.: three weeks?

kedah vs selangor

2008-08-25T08:49:00.004+08:00

the second goal was excellent.

three cups in two consecutive seasons. well done.

othman aziz we love you hehe.

p.s.: saturday.

n o n s e n s e

2008-08-21T08:58:00.004+08:00

please don't tell me what i'm doing are all nonsense.

p.s. follie

c l o s e d . a n d . o p e n e d

2008-08-20T08:41:00.003+08:00

what happened was, it opened.

oh my.

please, please.

p.s.: no way. yes way.

p u l l . t h e . v e i l . d o w n

2008-08-11T17:48:00.006+08:00

you know what, i actually did.

4th was the day when it striked me.
5th was the day when i ran my pilot project.
6th was the day when i actually plunged into it.

thanks to zam and ayu. you were really there for me.

this time, i'm so firm like never before.
this time, it's all or nothing. hence, The Plunge.

p.s.: i guess 4 years has been good enough.

p.p.s.: kusha i've missed you but this time it's different.

e i t h e r . o r

2008-08-11T17:46:00.004+08:00

it's either 'procrastination' or 'lack of time management skills'.

(or probably both)

p.s.: neither-nor

p i n g . p o n g

2008-07-29T14:17:00.004+08:00

letih la main ping pong.

bikin panas.

gua mimang panas.

weekend ni gua balik kampung. kasik sejuk sikit.

panas.

masalahnye gua tak main tapi gua kena.

p.s.: kecoh gile.

g l a s s

2008-07-21T09:59:00.003+08:00

last time the glass was half-full.
now it's half-empty.

:)

p.s.: trapped?

t w o . y e a r s

2008-07-06T21:11:00.005+08:00

tonight, the memory of Ex-Boyfriend came back. after so long. well, not like i never thought of him or the relationship at all. that's a part of my history anyways. only, this night was the first time i thought of it in a sentimental way. phew.

but oh. this is july. no wonder. in about a week, it'll be two years since. two years. and it feels like yesterday.

two years, and i'm still here.

p.s.: all the same.

d e p a r t

2008-06-25T14:07:00.006+08:00

i'm all set to depart from that world. already.

so i'm leaving behind what i never believed i could and would. no resons, and not that i need one. i'm over with my "there there" game. i've said all i needed to say, so repeatedly those words suffocate me. so it's officially Gagging Order already.

and i really am considering taking That Huge Leap Back. when you keep dreaming of it, you know it's almost time. and maybe that is what's going to make me keep me firm.

p.s.: Happy birthday Kusha.

alone . with . God

2008-06-25T14:04:00.005+08:00

i wish i was somewhere quiet where the only one i know is God.

p.s.: almost there.

want & need

2008-06-19T13:47:00.002+08:00

when i knew what i want already, when i decided that i really want that already, things turned the other way round.

what i want may not be what i really need. could it be the case? well. it could.

sad. after all the times i spent evaluating.

well at least i did my evaluation.

but i still want.

get something else.

can't. i want what i wanted.

stubborn.

p.s.: ke?

b o u n c e d

2008-06-18T12:13:00.003+08:00

sekali kena pulang paku buah keras daa.

dulu saya debit. sekarang saya kena kredit balik.
jadi, akaun dah seimbang.

tapi macam ada post-balance sheet adjustment.
adjust? susah.

susah.

dulu saya buat. sekarang saya kena. padan muka.

lain kali, jangan tipu diri sendiri.

p.s.: tipu orang lain takpe.

h a l t

2008-06-18T12:11:00.002+08:00

well. i decided to put things into a halt. for how long, God knows.

but it's not quite a halt anyways. i am moving. maybe a little slower. a move without progress. geez.

p.s.: took and taken for granted.

c o u l d , w o u l d

2008-06-12T15:24:00.002+08:00

i wish i could.
i wish you would.

p.s.: merry-go-round

e r a s e

2008-06-10T14:06:00.003+08:00

if only i could erase it all...

p.s.: elastic

r e t a i n (v2.0)

2008-06-10T09:24:00.003+08:00

please let me retain.
only, how do i retain what's not mine?

then snatch it away. and snatch it hard so it vanishes.
even seeing the shadow of it is painful.

one minute it's back. and the next it's gone again.
what game am i in now?

p.s.: white flag already.

b a c k p a c k

2008-06-09T16:59:00.003+08:00

where's next?

Singapore?
bo-ring. but July or end of year would be a good time. shop-ping, wheepa!! oh tapi kena jimat.

Yogyakarta?
what's the verdict...hmm.. Borobudur? nice. kan, kan?

Taman Negara Bako?
not quite suitable for a duo-trip. (yeah this time it's not solo. i'm looking for a partner-in-crime)

nanti la pikir.

p.s.: bekpek and slipar jepun.

s u n d a e

2008-06-09T16:55:00.003+08:00

i guess what they did to me on Sunday afternoon worked.

wow.

p.s.: yeehaa!!

k o n s e n t r e t

2008-06-06T10:07:00.003+08:00

what i desperately need now is the ability to concentrate.
focus, think straight, concentrate, focus, think straight, concentrate.

i need nothing else.

well i need a 2.8 Sigma lens.

(don't tell me i need another holiday)

p.s.: pukul je dua-dua tu. senang.

b i g . b a g s

2008-06-05T17:19:00.008+08:00

Kenneth Cole Hobo (www.kennethcole.com)

DKNY Hobo (www.DKNY.com)

DKNY Shopper (www.DKNY.com)

i love big bags.

tapi harga minyak dah naik.

oh well.

p.s.: i beg.

Jubli . Emas

2008-06-02T12:11:00.003+08:00

first june two oh oh eight.

the day mak turned fifty. i can't believe it. she looks so fresh.

sometimes, nothing else in this world matters. only mak matters. gosh.

mak. i love you, like nothing else.

please, don't leave me alone.

p.s.: fifty-fifty.

s i n c e r e

2008-06-02T12:04:00.002+08:00

if you're sincere about it, you'll just go for it.
you'll work for it, no matter what.
that is as simple as it is.

when you already know where you stand, it's time for you to determine your journey.
i wish i knew where i stand.

too much confusions drain you out. even worse, confusions could turn you into becoming something else.

i'm of saying "i'm sick". this time, i really don't know, and i really don't want to know.

drained. exhausted.

lost.

yes. lost.

so, lost.

p.s.: stop thinking of what's fair and what's not.

k a s i h - s a y a n g

2008-06-02T12:03:00.001+08:00

kalau kurang kasih sayang, memang macam tu.

bagi la kat dia. kesian.

dah nazak tu.

p.s.: lost.

B a n g k o k

2008-05-20T11:49:00.002+08:00

finally, the urge to upload Bangkok photos.

here: http://stiffhands.fotopages.com/?entry=1547574

:)

p.s.: take me back there.

m a n a

2008-05-20T09:34:00.001+08:00

di mana dia?

p.s.: come back.

i n . l o v e

2008-05-15T23:34:00.004+08:00

one month down the road, i guess i'm starting to fall in love.

too early to declare (well me being me). but i guess we're getting on alright so far.

i n . l o v e

2008-05-15T23:34:00.003+08:00

one month down the road, i guess i'm starting to fall in love.

too early to say tough (well me being me). but i guess we're getting on alright so far. but it's not like i have a choice anyways. but this time, it feels so good. so good that i don't want to get detached. not to be too excited, though.

there's nothing to rush about, but the adrenaline rush is so, well, exhilirating. oh well. let's get back into reality and just do what i'm supposed to do.

so much so about my new venture. i wish i could love a guy as much as this. Prince Charming please save my life, thank you.

***

well. for some reasons, i feel like i'm turning into a risk-averse. not good.

p.s.: bonne nuit.

p a k n g a h

2008-05-15T23:18:00.002+08:00

it turned out that today is pak ngah birthday. which i missed, until mak ngah rang me. bad, bad.

pak ngah, hapy birthday. i love you. i never told you this before, but i do. i wish i'm closer to you than i have always been. really. well. i promise won't miss your Jubli Emas next year hehe. a cake with 5 huge candles, on the house.

mak's and cik dan's birthday is in two weeks. better start planning on something.

p.s.: i miss you like never before.

w i k i q u o t e

2008-05-15T11:44:00.001+08:00

baby i hit a jackpot.

http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Main_Page

i love quotable quotes. enough said.

p i l e d . u p

2008-05-14T15:41:00.004+08:00

piles of:

1. people to get to know with
2. jargons to digest
3. rules and regulations to get familiar with
4. techniques to learn
5. technology updates to catch up
6. new language style to adapt to
7. hard- and soft-skills to acquire
8. et cetera, et cetera.

learning curve is steep. somewhat overwhelming. only, i can't afford to be left behind. going forward is the only choice.

my motivation was somewhat triggered, thanks to bla bla.

who cares. yes, i don't. come back up, get back alive.

p.s.: rev-up.

u n s p o k e n

2008-05-14T12:27:00.004+08:00

i got this from a friend yesterday:
"sometimes, some things are better left unspoken."

exactly.

let's get mute. i love keeping mute.

p.s.: hit the Mute button.

H S D P A

2008-05-12T22:14:00.004+08:00

High Speed Downlink Packet Access.

conneted at 11.8MB. impressive.
only, it looks worse than a dial-up connection.

when an invention does not serve its purpose, it becomes disappointment.

sigh.
it ain't easy to please everyone anyways.

p.s.: run baby, run.

p e n u l i s a n

2008-05-07T16:04:00.002+08:00

saya perlu meningkatkan kebolehan menulis. perlu biasakan diri mengarang semula. kali terakhir mengarang adalah pada tahun 1998, sewaktu peperiksaan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia.

perlu biasakan diri dengan terma-terma teknologi dan kewangan, dalam bahasa kebangsaan. perlu pantas menterjemah terma-terma.

kelakarnya bahasa saya.

p.s.: bahasa jiwa bangsa.

V H S D

2008-05-07T09:02:00.003+08:00

within two weeks, this is my second time saying this:
i love driving on the new KL - Putrajaya Highway in the morning.

lovely corners, smooth traffic, lovely corners, surrounding views aren't too bad. lovely corners. only, tolls are a bit ridiculous.

since i'm officially moving to Putrajaya this weekend, i'm gonna miss those morning VHSDs. despite the wide stretch of Putrajaya roads, i totally prohibit myself from VHSD in the area. for some reasons. hehe.

so much about the highway. well. at least for the past month, it has been one of those motivating factors. (what...?)

* in KL, driving speed beyond 110km/h is classified as VHSD.

** VHSD: Very High Speed Driving

p.s.: fast, not furious. slick, not reckless.

p.p.s.: what's with me? i need ribena.

r e t a i n

2008-05-06T14:46:00.002+08:00

i always had issues retaining what i had.
this time, i hope it's not an issue.

p.s.: what else do i believe in?

h o t b l o g

2008-05-05T16:25:00.008+08:00

okay. i'm too much. i know. i put this on my friendster and now here. well. my visit to www.chedet.com surely triggered some memories, right?

no, i don't read chedet dot com just because everyone does it. not just because it's The Hottest Blog in Town. talk about being born and growing up in his era. talk about one of the greatest minds the 21st century ever witnessed. talk about twenty two years of ups and downs.

i can't say i'm a die hard fan, but if there's any malaysian man whose faculty of mind i would like to get into, it's him.

well. everyone is free to choose and decide. :D

p.s.: that was back in february.

Photoshop CS3

2008-05-04T11:06:00.004+08:00

me don't loike, me don't loike.

i don't like it when this happens, it means i can't open a new file.

luckily editing existing files is still possible. heuw.

this is a sign for re-installation.

m a k

2008-05-02T09:12:00.002+08:00

i loved the way mak said things to me this morning. being a counselor (or at least an-ex counselor), she's really good in giving advise.

gosh. i have soft spot for people who speak with hikmah.

p.s.: eh how do we say 'hikmah' in english ah? donno oredi.

e l e p h a n t

2008-04-30T16:52:00.002+08:00

what i need now is a memory like an elephant.

heuw.

p.s.: short term memory loss.

l a s t . n i g h t

2008-04-29T16:38:00.003+08:00

what happened last night was bad.

bad, bad, bad.

i am very very sorry. right from the bottom of my heart. for all i know, keeping mute is best now.

bad, bad.

p.s.: instincts never failed you.